A couple of years ago, I started writing a book called “You Can Have It All.” I never finished the book because life took me on an amazing journey. During that time, I had to give myself permission “to have” what God was giving me in the season I was in. . . a new assignment and new motherhood. So, I stepped away from a lot of things in order to focus on the most important things for that moment.
I still believe you can have it all, even if you can’t have it all NOW. When I learned to be content whatever my circumstances ( Phil 4:11), God started to show me exactly what “having it all” meant. Check this out:
Four years ago I was working as a college administrator and professor. I thought that, along with women’s ministry, was my life’s work. My husband was working in organ donation and pastoring a church. Our lives were good. But just good. He worked long hours on both jobs; and I worked diligently on my job but spent most of my free time explaining to our daugher why daddy was always at work.
When we said yes to the call to the ministry of education, our lives changed in a matter of weeks. We both left our previous employers and literally took a leap of faith to build a school. Today, our professions have merged with our Kingdom purpose as a couple, and we spend most of our waking hours together, either building the school, working in ministry, or rearing our daughters.
The “all” of a few years ago is not the same “all” today.
Stepping away from some things gave me time to really see what God was doing in my life. One such thing was redefining what “all” meant. When I thought I was done having children, God surprised me with another miracle baby. When I thought I was going to work in someone else’s school, God blessed me with my own school. When I thought I was going to continue writing a marriage column to help others with their marriage, God blessed my marriage in such a way that we have no choice but to live and be as one. The past 2 years taught me that I have no idea what “having it all” really means. My “all” is not God’s “all.”
And thank God for that!
“Eyes have not seen, ears have not heard, nor has it entered into the heart of man what God has prepared for them that love him” (1 Cor 2:9).
“God will do exceedingly and abundantly above ALL I can ask or imagine according the power that works within me.” (Eph 3:20)
Once I surrendered to my season, I received the revelation that I was holding onto a limited “all” even though I was worshiping a limitless God. My heavenly Father, the giver of all good and perfect gifts, was trying to give me so much more through the reorganization of my family life and our career paths. He said:
Focus on the all of new motherhood.
Focus on the all of a daughter whose mother is her principal and whose dad is her pastor.
Focus on the all of building a marriage and true kingdom partnership that builds community and changes lives.
Focus on the all of driving to work together and re-instituting weekly lunch dates.
Focus on the all of getting clarity about worship and fellowship and ministry and church.
Focus on the all of now because if I showed you the all of later you’d let fear paralyze you from moving forward.
I still believe we can have it all, and I declare and decree the abundant life God has for me. Right now, though, I’m good with all He’s blessed me with today. The “all of now” is more than you or I comprehend.
Rest in it.